Chapter 13: Luckiest

People often label me as a drama queen. I'm not going to deny it but I certainly will elaborate on that degrading stereotype. My whole life I have been very emotionally connected and not afraid to express that. This label has never really hurt me, it has always made me laugh though. I've never seen a problem in someone who is honest and faithful to their emotions.

With that being said, I really enjoy going through old blog posts and being able to tell the exact emotions that I was feeling at the time. Sometimes it really upsets me and I feel pain, real pain that is so strange. I am glad I write these things down though, it is interesting to go back and remember those times. And remember how lucky and grateful I am now.

I haven't really announced or told anyone what I'm up to out here in California. People are so nosy these days and don't actually care, they just want another piece of gossip to spread or another friendship to fake. Ends up that I met this guy on the train to L.A. to see a friend... well.. never mind, not going to elaborate on that friend haha there is no point getting into THAT. I digress, I met a guy who brought me to this random meeting in L.A. with some rappers who were hilarious and ended up loving me. Just so happens that one of them was a manager and knew some pretty amazing people (and happened to think I was hilarious and pretty and very talented). Since this paragraph seems long enough and I doubt anyone is ambitious enough to read down this far, I am gearing up to work with a producer who has written for Disney and many other big names. He wrote "Getcha Head In The Game" from High School Musical and went triple platinum with that single alone. He has also written for Hannah Montana and various other things. I'm still waiting to get the ball rolling but he is an INSANELY talented dude and I am the luckiest. When I left my first meeting with him I basically cried the whole way back to San Diego, I was so happy. I was watching my dreams come true after only 2 weeks of being in California!!! How does that even happen? It's meant to be, that's how. I can't wait to start the process, this all feels really unreal.

I haven't really talked about it because A. we haven't started working together yet and B. people are just obnoxious and I don't want any drama going on surrounding my music career. Miley deals with drama, not this no name right here haha. Seems like I deal with just as much as her sometimes.

"The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about."

I am genuinely happier than I have EVER been in my entire life.

... and I love, LOVE that people are STILL so fucking interested in whether or not I'm working at Disneyland. HAAAAA. As soon as I met with this producer I emailed them to let them know I wasn't interested anymore. Yet people STILL ASK. "No, I won't be pursing a $9.50 an hour career doing parades when I can be making an album and actually LIVING my dream." Ughhhhhh.

Anyway, I am immensely happy. And if you read this far, I hope you are too. :]

Boys... hmm.. I'll just say this. I have had the same guy in mind for about 6 months now. He seems to be clueless and I'm not about to make a move and ruin our friendship. But it's problematic because I compare EVERY guy I meet to him. Still trying to figure out how to deal with this.

Carpe diem <3

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Sarah